Forgiving oneself
Today, I consulted a professional about my bad habits. Lately, I got so depressed that I didn't know what to do anymore. My grades weren't the grades, I had dreamed of. I got so down, that I envy people who were better than me.
When I get so down, I always look back. Realizing that I haven't had any achievements. I keep on quitting. I keep on giving up. I realized something, I wasn't fighting for what I loved to do. I was simply giving up what I have worked hard for all those years. It was an obstacle that I should have been strong enough to take on. But I didn't. I admit that regretting would not do any good. But the truth is I admit I was stupid enough not to fight for what I wanted. I was coward.
During the consultation, she (guidance counselor, the one I consulted to) told me that I had to forgive myself. Then, I realized, yeah, All these years, I haven't sat down and told myself I forgive myself for being coward. Instead, I keep on telling myself, how g...