The Foolish Writer

Today, I consulted a professional about my bad habits. Lately, I got so depressed that I didn't know what to do anymore. My grades weren't the grades, I had dreamed of. I got so down, that I envy people who were better than me. When I get so down, I always look back. Realizing that I haven't had any achievements. I keep on quitting. I keep on giving up. I realized something, I wasn't fighting for what I loved to do. I was simply giving up what I have worked hard for all those years. It was an obstacle that I should have been strong enough to take on. But I didn't. I admit that regretting would not do any good. But the truth is I admit I was stupid enough not to fight for what I wanted. I was coward. During the consultation, she (guidance counselor, the one I consulted to) told me that I had to forgive myself. Then, I realized, yeah, All these years, I haven't sat down and told myself I forgive myself for being coward. Instead, I keep on telling myself, how g...

You know how some people would criticize your every action? Well, I'm no star. But I get that a lot. Sometimes it makes me think, why I can't please everyone? I have a lot of friends but I have a lot of haters as well. Well, I think about their opinions about me, but once I know that my friends aren't bothered by it. I just shun away the thought. Why bother proving yourself to the people who criticize you? It'll be pathetic, if one small comment will let you down. If Lady Gaga felt bad about people criticizing about how she wears weird clothes, then she might not be famous for it. If those people who invented the airplane felt bad, when it was first launched and wasn't that successful. Then you'd probably be sitting on a boat going to America. Instead of feeling bad about it, be thankful that someone would criticize you. It will always remind you that you are not perfect. Besides, sooner or later you'd prove yourself to some of them, without you doing any ef...

I have always been in trouble. In 18 years of my life, this will be the most troublesome. I know I can handle this. In fact, I believe I can. I have to be wise. I used to get in trouble in school. May it be, peers, teachers, authorities you name it I have stories about it! At home, I get in trouble because I play a lot and never get my butt to work for this business that my mom started. Being in trouble, because some wife thinks that you're her husband's mistress is very stressful indeed. I don't know why I was born this way-- I mean being nosy and all. It's because of this that I get myself in a lot of trouble. I know. Dangerous right? But I can't help it. I want to help them. I want to fix them. I wish I'm actually doing the right th ing. Okay, a friend of mine has been warning me. In fact, I'm very thankful that I can always count on him. Last night, I was pondering and balancing about what really is up. I'm actually thrilled, because t...

I just bought two female hamster today. This is for our project in Psychology. I bought it at around 630 pesos with food, cage, house (coconut shell) and ladder in Bioresearch at SM north edsa. I have decided to document/ blog all about it. Okay, since I went there an d asked questions. I had a slight idea how to take care of this pet. :D YEY ME!!! =) So, here I am sharing my knowledge to you. Oh, by the way it's a 2 month old teddy bear looking hamster and it's a female. Tip: If you want to train hamsters, my professor tells me that female hamsters at a young age is very easy to train. This is how you take care of your pet hamster... Place a bedding ( wood carves, paper etc.) Change the bedding at least once a week. Do not place it anywhere near ANTS! (don't know why maybe they itch to death? can't google it though..) The sales lady says," You can't put it in direct sunlight." (Well, this is for obvious reasons... and if you don't know why, then try w...

We all go through the stage where we get our hearts broken. Then we ask the questions, "Why me?"or "Why do people like me, who're serious and loyal, get their heart broken?"   Well, I do hav e the answer for that. If you get to something that feels like you can't do it anymore. Think again.  People are given struggles that they SHOULD be capable of handling. I got my my heart broken a lot of times, probably, more than I have been loved back. I remember there was a time that I was discouraged. I felt that I was just simply too ugly for anyone. I can't be loved by someone. There was something wrong with me. But that was wrong. It wasn't me. It was just that they were looking for someone not fitting with my description. I couldn't blame them, who can? I got over it. But it took time and effort to be successful. Well, for people who get hurt. GET OVER IT!! Think of this: In this world, you cannot be the only living thing that could be hurting. The...

I remember the times that I was belittled. I remember why I wanted to get rich. I remember why I am doing all of this. I remember everything. It's because I want to help, help the people who are lost. I want to be someone who is capable of buying a land and make a wonderful place for orphans. I want to take care of the kids on Sundays. I want to own something this big. I want to own something 3 times bigger than this, because I want to be able to fit all those unfortunate people in a place where they can feel free and happy. I want to raise them up as smart people. So, when I take them out of this place they can live a progressive life. They will never feel hunger. I want to name this place Villa Perlinda, after my mom's name of course. I owe everything to my parents. I owe everything to mom. =) One day, when this comes true I'll look back at this post and tell myself, "Yes I did it." =)