My Career Path: How life created the path for me

For starters, I'm planning to jot down every lesson that I learn in my life. I will turn this sad little personal blog of mine to an inspirational blog. I hope by spreading this post out, it'll help a lot of people with the same issues that I used to have and will be having.

Let me give you a brief background about me, ever since I was a kid I aspire to be the top of the class. The talented one and the best person for anything. When you see me or even look at me, you could tell that I was the intelligent one in the class. I would probably make a living for being the brightest among the crowd of students. Yep, that's me the ambitious little kid in the block. Sorry to disappoint you though, but I am nothing but an average kid in school. So, if you feel like I've wasted your time reading this. I don't mind if you close the tab now. Since, you wouldn't care less about someone like me--yet, but hopefully someday you will. 

Anyhow, I have high regard for standards. I give myself the pleasure of pressure. Yep, you heard it right--pleasure. The thing about being competitive has been my motto since birth--I guess. It must have been the psychological mindset that my mom always use on me. She often tells me then, "Be the top of the class, get the 1st honor and I'll buy you whatever you want." or maybe that pride for myself of me being always praised at home for being good at this and that. But when I got to school--way back in kindergarten--I didn't get the 19 stars. I only had 5 stars and a shattered discouraged little heart. It was the first time that I felt someone was better than I am and it bothered me a lot. It bothered me to the point that I was asking myself, what I did wrong? But then a teacher of mine, I forgot who he/she was--but I think it was a she--way back in grade school gave us an advise about studying. She said, "Imagine the subject you hate in school and having that same subject again for summer because you miserably failed in it this semester. Don't you feel dreaded about it? You should be! Then why don't you start doing your best now and stop thinking about hating the subject? Because when you do aim for the best things in life or studies, there will always be that 0.01% chance that you fall down/fail during the process. On the other hand, you would probably land on the 2nd best or 3rd best." There and then it hit me. I should stop worrying about not being the best. I should start being thankful that I have this kind of defense mechanism that triggers my nerves to aim for the best. So, I accepted her theory about it and applied it to my every day life. Ever since that day everything about me changed. It didn't bother me that someone was better, I simply accepted the fact that someone will always be better than I am. What I need to do is simply aim for it, whether I get it or not the most important thing is I tried my best. Here is a personal advise, 

"Do your best not because you don't want anyone to be disappointed but do it for yourself because everyday is an opportunity to grow. There is no turning back of time to give remedy for your regrets. The action has to always and forever be now." 

When I was in grade school, a lot of my friends watched anime-- Deathnote, Naruto and Hell Girl. I didn't like Naruto at first because a lot of it were fights, maybe I didn't get it or maybe I was stupid/immature back then--though I had a crush on Sasuke (I even got myself a photograph of him in my wallet). When I got to 1st year college, I saw my little sister Katrina watching Naruto and got to have a glimpse of the clip. It triggered my interest and watched the whole thing from start to finish. Who would have thought that when I was up to date with the TV series, I would start reading the manga from beginning to end.  Let me make this clear, a lot of anime's has something to teach us. Naruto, for example, taught me a lot of things. Here's a list of it: (You need to have watched the whole thing to understand this or read more about it. I can't detail the story for you here.) 

• The next generation will always be better than the previous generation.
• My Nindo 忍道 (Ninja way): I will always be true to friends.
• The Will of Fire should be passed down from one generation to another.
• No one but you can stop you from achieving your dream.
• You need your friends to achieve your goals--"No man is an island."
• You need to find your rival to improve yourself.
• Struggle until you can't move to achieve your dreams.
• Have a goal in life and spread about it.
• Say it 'till you make it.

Side note to myself: I will ask my children to watch this in the future. Please do watch it. You will learn a lot from Naruto. 

Since I was a kid, I have always believed in reincarnation and Karma. Karma, specially, has always played the biggest role for most of the decisions I make with my life. When things get risky, I always say, "好人有好报(A good person will always be rewarded)“ This is why I am adventurous and gutsy because I have a belief system that is mostly influenced by Chinese proverbs and Confucius. Here is a list:

• Everything happens for a reason. 
• For every person we meet in our life, they will always have something to teach us-- look out for it.
• A good person will always meet the good people.
• When you find the bright thing out of a dark spot, congratulations! You've grown.
• Find what makes you passionate (know what you want) and use that as a stepping stone for your success.

Above here are the key ingredients of my life recipe. It wasn't all rainbows. There were a lot of crying, silly suicidal attempt days, embarrassment, rejections, silly mistakes, jealousy, insecurities, betrayal and stubbornness during the process. But with friends, you get to deal with it. Hope after reading this you learned something. 'Till the part 2 of my career path.