Manifesting Works
Today is the 16th of May 2017, I will never forget this feeling. I used all my positivity to get this far. I am an honest-to-God-lazy-student since starting school. I never study. I prefer playing than studying. I prefer working over studying.
Why?
Because there was a point in my life that I wished to become the valedictorian of the class or maybe graduating as Magna Cum Laude. That's why I studied harder than any other student can. The highest I got was an 80. That's why I got so depressed that I refuse to study again. Why study? When you can get a passing grade without studying? I thought to myself. That's why I graduated in high school and college as an average student. I just simply given myself to the thought that I was an average student. I'm no genius (in Chinese 天才).
I am confident with almost everything in my life except academics. That's the only exception in my life. I just feel like I'm not one of those honor students. I'm nothing like them. I envy people who get high grades without even studying. I look up to them. I tell myself, "How the heck did they do it?"
But I got to PSBA and everything changed. The first semester was smooth sailing. I need not study and get an 83 in exams. It's where I felt, pretty much, one of the intelligent students. I was part of the top 10 and it was fulfilling. It was amazing. It was a dream come true.
Here comes summer, I thought I could get away without studying seeing as I master the fundamentals of Financial Accounting. It was my highest grade back in UST. I was confident that I know the lessons. Then, my professor had to add the pressure to it. He announced in class that I could get a 100 in his quizzes. I really hate pressure. I cannot handle it properly because of my lack of self-esteem in my own intelligence. I failed the first 2 quizzes. I felt it and to add salt to the injury I had as much pressure in the office. I couldn't handle all the pressure that was surrounding me. I cried and screamed.
The next day, I decided to wake up and change my perspective. I told myself, "Screw you pressure". I would do what I can and hope for the best. I changed my perspective. I just told myself I will get a 100 for my next quiz no matter what and leave the things I can't control. I hate saying it out loud, my goals, I mean. Because if I cannot do it, I could be humiliated. But it does help to say it often. I remember after this 3rd quiz I told my professor, that I would literally need that 100 for this quiz because I had computed my grade. If I don't get a 100 I would fail his subject. He just smiled at me.
I think, positive thinking attracts luck. When I got the questionnaires I was astonished that most of the problems came from the book that I just reviewed that day! What luck! I was happy and positive about it. I knew I could not get a 100 but at least I would be getting a good grade for it. I just thought to myself, "The universe knows what I need. It knows what I deserve to have. It's preparing me for whatever I want."
True enough I received my test paper for that quiz today. I got the highest score in class that's why by default I was the base grade for the entire quiz and I get a 100 for it. I got a 100 by default. That's how positive thinking works. From now on. I would use it to aim for my heart's desire. To top the board exam. :)
Why?
Because there was a point in my life that I wished to become the valedictorian of the class or maybe graduating as Magna Cum Laude. That's why I studied harder than any other student can. The highest I got was an 80. That's why I got so depressed that I refuse to study again. Why study? When you can get a passing grade without studying? I thought to myself. That's why I graduated in high school and college as an average student. I just simply given myself to the thought that I was an average student. I'm no genius (in Chinese 天才).
I am confident with almost everything in my life except academics. That's the only exception in my life. I just feel like I'm not one of those honor students. I'm nothing like them. I envy people who get high grades without even studying. I look up to them. I tell myself, "How the heck did they do it?"
But I got to PSBA and everything changed. The first semester was smooth sailing. I need not study and get an 83 in exams. It's where I felt, pretty much, one of the intelligent students. I was part of the top 10 and it was fulfilling. It was amazing. It was a dream come true.
Here comes summer, I thought I could get away without studying seeing as I master the fundamentals of Financial Accounting. It was my highest grade back in UST. I was confident that I know the lessons. Then, my professor had to add the pressure to it. He announced in class that I could get a 100 in his quizzes. I really hate pressure. I cannot handle it properly because of my lack of self-esteem in my own intelligence. I failed the first 2 quizzes. I felt it and to add salt to the injury I had as much pressure in the office. I couldn't handle all the pressure that was surrounding me. I cried and screamed.
The next day, I decided to wake up and change my perspective. I told myself, "Screw you pressure". I would do what I can and hope for the best. I changed my perspective. I just told myself I will get a 100 for my next quiz no matter what and leave the things I can't control. I hate saying it out loud, my goals, I mean. Because if I cannot do it, I could be humiliated. But it does help to say it often. I remember after this 3rd quiz I told my professor, that I would literally need that 100 for this quiz because I had computed my grade. If I don't get a 100 I would fail his subject. He just smiled at me.
I think, positive thinking attracts luck. When I got the questionnaires I was astonished that most of the problems came from the book that I just reviewed that day! What luck! I was happy and positive about it. I knew I could not get a 100 but at least I would be getting a good grade for it. I just thought to myself, "The universe knows what I need. It knows what I deserve to have. It's preparing me for whatever I want."
True enough I received my test paper for that quiz today. I got the highest score in class that's why by default I was the base grade for the entire quiz and I get a 100 for it. I got a 100 by default. That's how positive thinking works. From now on. I would use it to aim for my heart's desire. To top the board exam. :)
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